Tears In The Water

[ cover art by Polina / epsilynn ]

upper ya/new adult – contemporary

A character-driven, slice-of-life story of love and self-discovery.

At White Ravens University, where athletes train to become professional sportspeople, Alex is on the swimming team with her best friend, Xiuying. Having grown up mostly alone, parents absent and brother often busy with his own life, Alex tends not to meet new people unless she and Xiuying are together.
After an embarrassing encounter with a boy from the volleyball team Alex soon discovers that the world isn’t so big after all and the universe has a funny way of setting people up, especially when and with whom they’re least expecting.
Despite her reserved character, Alex becomes part of a newly formed friend group consisting of four amazing people with different identities and personalities. As she tries to overcome her anxiety and negative past events, Alex finds herself both struggling with romantic feelings for a new acquaintance and a full blown gender crisis.

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Content Warnings: body dysphoria, gender dysphoria, self-blame, repetitive self-hatred and negative thoughts, self-harm (not cutting), anxiety, anxiety/panic attacks, neurodivergent burnout, going non-verbal, anger issues, mentions of homophobia and transphobia, misgendering, brief sexual harassment, mention of diets, eating outside of meal times,  parental neglect, alcohol consumption (although all the characters can legally drink), cussing. 

🏳️‍⚧️ Pansexual Gender-Questioning (leaning towards nonbinary) White Main Character (who also has a brief asexual crisis)
🏳️‍⚧️ Trans (ftm) Demisexual White Love Interest
🏳️‍🌈 Lesbian Chinese (Important) Side Character
🏳️‍🌈 Aromantic Asexual Black Side Character
🏳️‍🌈 Bisexual White Side Character.

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